Today is different, today is six years later, but today still causes me anxiety. Today I still miss you.
Six years ago my niece left this world in a tragic car accident. An accident that changed not only our family, but four other families. A day we can’t change. A day that rocked the community. She was young and she had her life ahead of her. It’s not easy to understand grief. I do know it comes and goes, and for me most days it’s just better to pretend it never happened. Maybe that’s not the healthiest way to handle it, but at least it subdues the pain to some extent.
When someone dies abruptly it causes great anxiety because you didn’t get to say good-bye. You were not expecting it. Maybe there were words said that shouldn’t have been or words left unsaid. Either way, there can be deep regret. When someone dies young, we can’t wrap our heads around it. They should have been able to grow old, it’s out of order. Put those two components together and your grief can be too much to handle and too overwhelming.
Grief never goes away, but you do learn how to live with it. You do figure out to handle it and you do learn how to go on with your life. Sometimes you walk through it alone. Sure people gather around at first, but then they leave and go back to their lives. You are then left to weed through it on your own. It’s not easy. Some can survive it and some are barely holding on. I would encourage you that if you are barely holding on, you’re not alone. Someone else out there is going through the same thing. You can find strength and comfort in others. If you don’t have someone you can talk to, seek out a support group in your area or a group on Facebook. Just being in the presence of others who have walked your path can help. You will survive.
“Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you. – Isaiah 54:10
Chelsie you are loved and missed!
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